I am a fantasy parade.

pathetic much? lol

and so he left with his mom and grandma at 7:30 tonight.

they stopped somewhere and got a motel room and midnight, thats when he called me to say goodnight.

i’ve spent the past several hours up here, reading fanfiction, RPing and trying to relay the best relationship advice I could to another friend. and listening to sappy music all the while.

now i’m scared to say that my eyes are heavy and i feel really eerily calm. i’m gonna try climbing into bed and hope to god i don’t start crying (again).

i haven’t had to sleep without him for almost a year now. his absence is reminding me of how it was when we were a part, and i don’t like it.

and it’s silly because he’ll be back on saturday.

i don’t know. i just want him home already.